A Letter I Never Sent You

Transparency is hard, being vulnerable is hard, being honest with your own emotions is hard, but somethings have to be said so here it goes.

This is the letter I never sent to you…

I was holding my breath waiting for the pain to come crashing into me. There were so many fearful moments wondering if this was it. But when it finally happened I knew without a doubt. And yes it hurt like hell, a certain pain you can’t prepare for – and even now my heart stings. But I have to thank you for being strong enough for both of us, because the anticipation of the end was so daunting I could barely think straight.

I would have held on forever but we both deserved better than fuzzy lines and mixed emotions.

Endings are always the hardest. I often live in a gray zone where I feel safe. But that’s my problem I can’t grow somewhere I feel safe. I need clear cut boundaries and you knew that.

Thank you for loving me enough to allow me to go, for allowing me to grow.

I will always love you, but now I get to love myself too.

The Longest Lesson: Lesson’s of an Empowered Woman – Written By Felicia Kopec