It’s Time to Celebrate the Beginnings

This is the first time I’m celebrating my beginnings.

I’ve had a lot of silent battles I’ve been hurdling these last few months. I’ve wiped my own tears and comforted myself in dark moments. I lost and gained and lived through so many different highs and lows throughout this journey. I built and layered the skin that lays across my bones to be tough and brave and humble.

Resetting and restructuring my mindset every-time I considered giving up, failing myself; and let me tell you there were many times I wanted to give up – crawl back to comfort. But I promised myself that if I could be brave it would eventually lead to happiness. A completely new mentality is what I built.

It’s not easy. Being strong is lonely and painful. There were so many days I almost reached back out to my old life clinging to memories that were just that – memories.

I took myself out on dinner dates and watched sunsets alone. I made meals for one, romanticized myself, enjoyed engaging books, and zoned out to movies only I needed to be interested in. All of that felt so sad at first, I hated doing anything alone ever. Then, one day, it wasn’t so bad. It wasn’t so terribly lonely. I enjoy people watching while sitting in a restaurant. I enjoy making myself delicious food, and nobody complains about the heat being on with the windows open.

I love my own company – I have so much to offer, and I get to soak all of that up.

I am powerful enough to heal through the breaking and to rebuild after my hopes, expectations and wants turned to dust.

I finally turned the last page of that story and began writing my own.

I finally saved myself.

The Longest Lesson: Lesson’s Of An Empowered Woman written by- Felicia Kopec