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I’m Moving (again)!
months; from the friends I’ve made; from the home I know; from the small community I’ve built around myself.
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Somethings Take Time to Digest
I feel like I’ve amped up this journey for myself to the point where I expected this huge change to transform me completely. However, I’ve settled back into old routines and life feels exactly the way it did when I lived in Chicago.
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What 2021 Taught Me a Long the Way
Here is to the woman I’m going to be in 2022. May she be well dressed, successful, glowing, and happy.
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It’s Time to Celebrate the Beginnings
I've had a lot of silent battles I’ve been hurdling these last few months. I’ve wiped my own tears and comforted myself in dark moments. I lost and gained and lived through so many different highs and lows throughout this journey. I built and layered the skin that lays across my bones to be tough and brave and humble.
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I am not my Pain and Neither are You
My whole perspective has been what I was losing, what I left behind. But I’ve gained so much, I’ve built a life for myself that I promised I would. I achieved a goal I was so afraid to face. I’m doing exactly what I promised myself I’d do for years. And none of that means I don’t get to miss my old life or hurt when those memories crash in, but it’s time to let the pain go from overwhelming the beauty of everything else.
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Moving to a New State has Taught Me More Than I Could Have Ever Imagined
I’ve been incredibly vulnerable, honest, and true to myself. I’ve poured my heart out and have had it smashed to pieces. I’ve learned some incredibly difficult lessons. I understand the value of time spent with someone, when to hold my tongue and listen, and when to speak up if I’m uncomfortable. I’ve learned what I want out of my life, who I want to be, and what I will no longer tolerate. I’ve started therapy and learned mourning my old life is normal. I’ve grown and changed but still pieces of me remain the same.
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Month Three – It’s About Following Your Intuition
Moving here has been the bravest most challenging thing I’ve done for myself. I walked into a new life not knowing the friends I would meet or the roots I would plant here but I went anyways into the unknown. A type of courage, a type of pain. There is still so much to discover and still parts of me to understand completely. Yet, I know now I’ll be just fine with whatever is thrown my way because I move intuitively.
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One Step Forward Two Steps Back – The Dance of Life
It’s unfair to compare an old life to a new one, but that’s what I keep doing this week. I look back on photos and memories that are just that and I wonder if I made a mistake. I’ve made new friends and memories in this new life too, but they hold a different weight. I had my first big cry, the other day, since moving here 3 weeks ago, but instead of looking at it as a sign of weakness I try to remind myself it’s a sign of change. My heart is healing, my doors are opening, my world is expanding, and these are growing pains.
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The Beginning Of My Journey – One I Never Took Alone
Someone recently said to me, the only problem with moving is that you bring all of yourself with you. But I disagree, I think the best part about moving is all that you bring within yourself. You bring your mother’s charm, your father’s courage, your sibling’s humor, your best friend’s warmth, your life is made up of the people around you regardless of where you go, and I think that’s beautiful.
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The First Step into My New Life: Saying Goodbye
The last few days, I’ve been lucky enough to be surrounded by so many people I love. Friendships have been toasted and hugs lasted a little longer, because I’ve officially decided to say goodbye. I am saying goodbye to so many comfort zones, places, and people – and to be honest it scares the hell out of me. Change requires a lot of acceptance. It’s accepting that I’ll no longer be able to be a part of some parties or memories. It’s knowing I won’t know all the new people my friends meet, and there will be adventures a part and birthdays missed. It’s accepting a new life and that…