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Moving to a New State has Taught Me More Than I Could Have Ever Imagined
I’ve been incredibly vulnerable, honest, and true to myself. I’ve poured my heart out and have had it smashed to pieces. I’ve learned some incredibly difficult lessons. I understand the value of time spent with someone, when to hold my tongue and listen, and when to speak up if I’m uncomfortable. I’ve learned what I want out of my life, who I want to be, and what I will no longer tolerate. I’ve started therapy and learned mourning my old life is normal. I’ve grown and changed but still pieces of me remain the same.
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Do Yourself a Favor and Check-in on Yourself Often
Screw trying to follow some perfect order of life that isn’t even real. Screw feeling bad because I’m single at 27, and not knowing what I want to do in my career path, and for still learning about where I want to live so I move a lot. Screw staying in relationships that aren’t right for me or holding back about still feeling sad that something good ended BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT THAT IS REALLY FREAKING SAD. Screw waiting for someone else to bring you flowers, buy yourself the fucking roses. Screw any negative expectation that is holding you back, because you’re exactly where you should be.
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Month Three – It’s About Following Your Intuition
Moving here has been the bravest most challenging thing I’ve done for myself. I walked into a new life not knowing the friends I would meet or the roots I would plant here but I went anyways into the unknown. A type of courage, a type of pain. There is still so much to discover and still parts of me to understand completely. Yet, I know now I’ll be just fine with whatever is thrown my way because I move intuitively.
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Even Writers Lose Their Words Sometimes so Here’s Something Else
I think sometimes we forget how lucky we are to live such easy lives. That our only concerns are feeling a bit lonely, a little lost, slightly sad but incredibly blessed. I know how beautiful life is, I capture it every way I can. I try to hold onto moments and soak in sunshine. I fall in love with poetry and books. I immerse in quiet moments but live for chaos. I believe there’s more good in the world than bad. And I hope wherever you are and whatever you’re facing you can enjoy your little moments too.
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A Letter I Never Sent You
I was holding my breath waiting for the pain to come crashing into me. There were so many fearful moments wondering if this was it. But when it finally happened I knew without a doubt. And yes it hurt like hell, a certain pain you can’t prepare for – and even now my heart stings. But I have to thank you for being strong enough for both of us because the anticipation of the end was so daunting I could barely think straight.
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One Step Forward Two Steps Back – The Dance of Life
It’s unfair to compare an old life to a new one, but that’s what I keep doing this week. I look back on photos and memories that are just that and I wonder if I made a mistake. I’ve made new friends and memories in this new life too, but they hold a different weight. I had my first big cry, the other day, since moving here 3 weeks ago, but instead of looking at it as a sign of weakness I try to remind myself it’s a sign of change. My heart is healing, my doors are opening, my world is expanding, and these are growing pains.
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The Beginning Of My Journey – One I Never Took Alone
Someone recently said to me, the only problem with moving is that you bring all of yourself with you. But I disagree, I think the best part about moving is all that you bring within yourself. You bring your mother’s charm, your father’s courage, your sibling’s humor, your best friend’s warmth, your life is made up of the people around you regardless of where you go, and I think that’s beautiful.
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I Was Wrong About Love All Along
I’m picky when it comes to love, I’ve spent my whole life curious about who my soul mate is. However, in the last few months I’ve been lucky enough to realize that the people I’ve opened my heart to are my soul mates. I don’t take enough time to appreciate my circle of family and friends. I don’t realize how lucky I’ve always been to have them surround me and love me through every moment of my life.
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The First Step into My New Life: Saying Goodbye
The last few days, I’ve been lucky enough to be surrounded by so many people I love. Friendships have been toasted and hugs lasted a little longer, because I’ve officially decided to say goodbye. I am saying goodbye to so many comfort zones, places, and people – and to be honest it scares the hell out of me. Change requires a lot of acceptance. It’s accepting that I’ll no longer be able to be a part of some parties or memories. It’s knowing I won’t know all the new people my friends meet, and there will be adventures a part and birthdays missed. It’s accepting a new life and that…
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The Longest Lesson
You see, nobody prepares you for the moment you have to break your own heart. The times when your intuition pulls you one way and love pulls you another. No one tells you the direction to go in or lets you in on which will hurt less. So, here’s the secret from the girl who’s living it. They are both going to sting like hell, but darling trust your gut.